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|1/19/2012|
2nd post of the day for reasons I dun wana explain .....
Simply too lazy to haha~
but yea.... been well just wandering around my house and cleaning, clearing up to get ready for CNY and been sooooooooo busy with preparations for Saturday.... yes after Sat I will officially have a new cosplay added whoo~ planned it since last year....
The good thing is you'll get new photos and so does devart and cure
The bad thing is I'll have to break that promise of not taking out the infinite silence for 1 day BECAUSE of the cos.... >w<
Sorry to break this promise.... BUT~ I will definitely draw it back on the night I get back after shower ~ so yea~ that's a promise....
Besides such plans... I've already made plans for my CNY outfits :D which is a plus.... but I think I'll still be all bored and lonely the entire CNY ... I see no reason to dress up -A- not as if I'm gonna impress someone... -A-
I rather dressup for V'Day which is Feb 14 BUT then again I dun have anyone to celebrate with... no bf no nothing so nvm -A- I think I'll just be a slob that day and cry my eyes out at home with the hopes of not dying fat and with 88 cats when I get old....~
haha~ but yea pretty much just want this year to be different but in a good way.... a bit like 2011 I guess???
2012 for me has gotten a bad start? and I ended 2011 with kind of a mess about to happen kind of shit ~ so yea... but 2011 was a good yr cause
1. V'dae I celebrated with my peeps :)
2. Discovered 1D lol~
3. Met someone whom I've kinda realise that I think I'm in love with?
4. Had a frustrating yet fun prolly best bday ever which I wana re-live...
5. Sang quite a bit....
6. Had a wonderful experience in the UK and caught up with frens
7. Cosplayed??
8. Learnt more about love~
BUT~ the bad things were.....
1. I messed up some deep shit ~
2. Lost myself along the way which led to that deep shit haha~
3. Hurt someone during all this~ and I think I might possibly be in love with him -A- gosh~
4. Got "cheated on"
5. Cried my eyes out like there was seriously no tomorrow....
6. Lost mums trust cause of b'dae BUT I got it back... now tech. on probation ~
As for 2012 the good things so far are....
1. I fixed and cleaned up that deep shit ~ :D
2. Found who I was and learnt alot about myself
3. Remembered smth really pleasant and was reminded about the innocent loves I had....
4. Is hopefully finding it~?
5. My frens are back :D definitely~
As for bad....
1. Fell sick -A-
2. Super scared of what the deep shit would cause .... if it got out?
3. That I might end up getting rejected?
4.Moods definitely.... *was suicidal at one pt*
5. Now fear of many things to come...
6. Became less daring (which is a good thing)
Pretty much it I guess??? I dun see much of a drastic change yet but definitely am glad that things slowly got better for me and I found who I was again....
¶»We're all mad here.|~
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